I have been struggling with my mental health for some time in fact for many years and I have hidden it from my friends & family and put on a brave face for far too long long now and I can’t keep pretending anymore that everything is ok I put on a brave face and just try to hide behind my smile and when people ask me if I’m ok I just laugh and smile and say of course im I have to be and stay strong for my family I put ever one first before myself and do my best to please everyone but I can’t cope or do it anymore I need to put myself and the people I care about first, so I going to set myself some goals and achieve them so this is one of my goals I’m setting myself is to train and complete the London marathon in a good and respectable time and hope to rise as much money as possible for men’s mental health charity